My cat Sonic a very special family passed away today. I got 3 texts from my Dad 1st saying Sonic took a turn for the worse saying a family member of ours named Valerie. Found him on his side breathing but not moving with blood at the nose. My dad said Mom would take me to the vet to see him. I got the texts during class. So I finally asked one of the helpers in my class if I could check the texts outside. She said "Do it quick and come right back". I checked the texts outside of the class. When I read the 1st text, I fell back onto the wall and started crying. I had to get back to class so I quickly dried my tears SUCKED IT UP and went back inside. Two people asked me if I was alright. The first one I said I was fine...I thought I pulled that one off pretty well but when the secound person asked me..I finally cracked under the preasure of feeling hopeless. So after I finished crying ( or tried ) my friend Laura tried commforting me. She tried, I think it was the best she could do in the situation. She can't stand when people cry. Same like me, I can barely stand myself crying. Let alone anyonelse. I was so anxious to get out of school as soon as the clock turned 3:00 I ran out as fast as I could. Kinda crying while I was running too. I ran so hard..and fast that I did'nt have time to catch my breath and since I was crying so hard I could hardly breath. I ran home as fast as I could to see my MOm at home..though when I got there..Mom wasn't there. So I called her she said she was in the school parking lot. I ran back near the street waiting for my Mom to see her car. Still crying, kinda in fear that I wouldn't get to say goodbye to Sonic before he passed. My Mom FINALLY CAME then she drove into our parking lot and opened the garage door. I thought she was going to pull in so I said "WHAT THE FUCK!?". She said she had to go to the FUCKING BATHROOM!! WHEN IT WAS CLEARLY A FUCKING FAMILY EMERGANCY. When she came back from the bathroom. We drove to the vet where sonic was. Mom tried to comfort me..though I DID NOT WANT HER TOUCHING ME AT ALL! When we got there I ran inside and asked a lady where Sonic is. She showed me where he was. Sonic was in a silver cage, IV's in his paw, having a heated blanket over him. I went over to see him. I cuddled with him when the cage door opened. He stayed alive and awake just for me to see him. I cuddled with crying, not wanting to leave his side. After awhile the vet came in and said his chances of surviving were almost nothing. He suggested we euthanize Sonic. I keep crying 1. because I didn't want to euthanize Sonic and 2. because I've never approved of euthanizing animals. I later asked my Mom to ask for the vet to give me the percentage of Sonic surving with a healthy outcome. He said less then 1% chance. So....I made the hardest discision I've ever made in my life.....to euthanize Sonic who has been with me through everything...When I was little....he used to let me strap him into my doll stroller...and would cuddle next to me in bed...and if I was crying..he'd let me cuddle him and dry my tears...when I was angry and in a fit of rage..he'd purr and calm me down...and...at our old house.... he'd snuggle next to me in bed and since my bed was against a window in my old room...we'd look at the stars together from my bedroom window... I'd always think "look how pretty they look." and stare into that midnight blue sky filled with stars that would sometimes...sparkle diamonds..I always thought stars were actually diamonds in the sky..and that...every star in the sky...was a persons soul...shinning high up in the sky...and I wondered...who the brightest star was...I asked my Mom...to give me a half an hour to stay with him...just a little bit longer..When the half an hour was up the vet came in...he asked me if I wanted to hold Sonic...I said yes...I held him...*is crying currently* I said "I love you.I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ( was crying while doing this )I'm sorry.I'M SORRY. I'M SO SORRY I COULDN'T PROTECT YOU! thank you ( I was crying so hard ) thank you for taking care of me. THANK YOU SO MUCH!" ( I kept kissing and hugging him..holding him close to me...never wanting to let him ) I kept saying I'm sorry and that I loved him. When he was gone....*is crying kinda hard* I held his body and said "forgive me ( was crying so hard ) please forgive me..." after awhile I set his body down on the blankets he was laying on... and I cuddle his body one last time ( kissing his head and hugging and cuddling and watching my tears drop onto his beautiful orange fur ) I said "watch over me from heaven.will you?". Before he died I said to him "thanks for being my gaurdain angel." I hope someday...maybe soon..I'll see him again..and I can be the happy little girl I was when I was with him..

Sonic you were a fatherly figure...a father I never really had and the 1st friend I ever made you were also a teacher. Teaching me to learn more about other peoples feelings and helping me make new friends. Thanks to you.. I have the friends I have today. I will never EVER forget you

R.I.P. Sonic - Love Katie